the downside of loving someone awesome
I’m freaking out more than a little about admissions, about the lack of feedback from anywhere I submit my resume, the unlove I feel from my job, from comparing myself with so many people my age.
And I cannot tell you because, love, you can do anything you set your mind to. And I fear that I cannot.
It’s like that song, “You’re a God” and it’s the first time I feel that I am the singer.
Dear Green Eyed Monster in the Mirror
Please stop haunting me. I do not want to keep seeing you in the mirror.
I do not want to keep faking illnesses whenever you arise. He is bound to notice sooner or later.
I want to trust him because he has shown me nothing to doubt him.
I do not want to chain him to myself simply because his being with other people makes me feel alone.
Please go away.
I do not want to feel this.
i’m looking for a new job. Like I said, she goes, I go.
Ze boss is leaving. My heart is broken.
nothing else can compare
(8-15) Today’s Lesson
Even if you never truly, with all your heart wanted something, it still hurts to be rejected for it. Expecially when it happens not out of merit, but selfishness.
If I am the only one, after all, who can effectively “do what i do” in this company, should this company be taking care of me?
But alas, I have decided to take it in stride and treat it as a blessing in disguise.
But just because I understand, doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt.
Mission log: day 224. Letters from a space traveler.
I was pretty bummed about Robbin Williams’ death so I made this as a goodbye.