She was the kind of girl who no one really noticed at first. She’d sit there quietly without a sound and if you said hi you’d be lucky to get a smile and a nod.
But if you looked closely, you would notice her fingers tapping on the desk, playing an imaginary piano. You would hear her humming under her breath, just loud enough to orchestrate an entire symphony for one and avoid the ‘what are you singing?’.
And if you asked her what she thought of ‘that film’ you’d probably end up talking to yourself, because she would much rather you ask her opinion on the creation of the universe or how war and poverty are justified.
In fact, she didn’t so mind that no one noticed her, because when she was loud the ground trembled beneath her feet and the mountains echoed her roar.
Her loudness wasn’t something everyone could handle, so when he walked up to her and they began talking about the world in all its wonder, her heart gave a little sigh, as if to say “Oh, there you are. I’ve been looking for you.”
You know ze boss still thinks very highly of you so much so that she almost offered you her position now that she’s leaving.
I’m sorry what we had keeps getting in the way of growth opportunities for you.
Oddly, I felt proud of you.
the downside of loving someone awesome
I’m freaking out more than a little about admissions, about the lack of feedback from anywhere I submit my resume, the unlove I feel from my job, from comparing myself with so many people my age.
And I cannot tell you because, love, you can do anything you set your mind to. And I fear that I cannot.
It’s like that song, “You’re a God” and it’s the first time I feel that I am the singer.
Dear Green Eyed Monster in the Mirror
Please stop haunting me. I do not want to keep seeing you in the mirror.
I do not want to keep faking illnesses whenever you arise. He is bound to notice sooner or later.
I want to trust him because he has shown me nothing to doubt him.
I do not want to chain him to myself simply because his being with other people makes me feel alone.
Please go away.
I do not want to feel this.
i’m looking for a new job. Like I said, she goes, I go.
Ze boss is leaving. My heart is broken.
nothing else can compare
(8-15) Today’s Lesson
Even if you never truly, with all your heart wanted something, it still hurts to be rejected for it. Expecially when it happens not out of merit, but selfishness.
If I am the only one, after all, who can effectively “do what i do” in this company, should this company be taking care of me?
But alas, I have decided to take it in stride and treat it as a blessing in disguise.
But just because I understand, doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt.
Mission log: day 224. Letters from a space traveler.
I was pretty bummed about Robbin Williams’ death so I made this as a goodbye.